為什麼..?(英)

why is he not for me?

maybe its cuz he depends on me, and when he cant depend on me, he will on someone else..
he needs someone there for him always.. and can I be there for him always? no i cant
and when i cant he'll seek out for someone else.. its that someone else that bothers me
because he wont look for another guy to hang out with, he'll look out for a girl, who holds him the way i do.
why does this bother me? because i feel like im being replaced.
why cant i say anything? because it wont really help anything. It'll just seem like im making a big fuzz out of smthing..

I myself may be flirting with others, but he does the same thing, why cant i?
in the end.. its not as serious as i thought it was. its going to end sooner or later.
that is as clear as crystal and as transparent as water.

im not angry, im not mad, this is just a reminder, for when things happen, let myself know it wasnt unexpected.

maybe when the time come closer, start to prepare myself mentally. i dont know.
there is a purpose..

i keep on wondering.. do u FIND someone for u? or do u MAKE someone for u?
its sad and realistic when u gotta make that someone, because theres no one whos natural meant for you.